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On monday went to see my grandad in hospital i think he's gonna die soon he's really ill and he only weights 8 stone.

I've never been really close with my grandad Mc but when I seen him on monday sitting in the hospitals chair he looked so lifeless and i felt like crying I hate that feeling I cant' stand it.

I hate it when I get sad I feel so weak and that anyone could tramble over me.
I havn't let anyone know but I'm really scared I keep putting a smile one but I don't mean it I got all this shit at home aswell with my mum and dad.

My dad told me he's gonna leave on my bday which is in 3 weeks so happy bday to me for then.

djfhdjkghdfgjrk I hate pain i'm not strong enough to handle it every time somthing fukin bad happens I run and hide in a corner and cry. I'M SO FUKIN WEAK I HATE IT UAHDSFJDLGJIGJ.
At this moment in time i hate everything.

I don't want my grandad to die someone in my family always dies around christmas. But the scary thing is my nephew is suposed to be born after christmas and if my grandad dies then my nephew is born i would find it freaky.

I feel as though the only good thing going on in my life right now is Michael.

I'm going hope my day gets betta well am offski bye bye xoxoxo