DUMPED!!!!!

I can't believe Michael and I arent going out anymore.
I feel really lost with out him as stupid as that sounds he was everything to me even though I cheated on him and said some bad things. But I love him so much i've never loved anyone the way I loved him.

He made me so happy i'ver never been happier in my whole shit life. The last 8 months where fucken grate. And now I just don't know what to do without him apart from drink.

I'm really upset about losing him but Vodka helps take the pain away I know I'm being stupid.

I want to talk to him in school I would rather have him as a friend than nothing at all but i'm scared to go neare him incase he tells me to fuck off.
Also when I saw him yesterday and when I see his friend I act really hyper and try to hide upset I am.Michael can read me like a book though so he probably knows i'm just acting :(.

I wish I was a better girlfriend to him I know he's only 15 we where gonna brake up sooner or later but I wish i didn't happen the way it did because it's all my fault.

I really want me and him to get back together but I doubt he wants that .

But yes if he was to ever ask me back out I would say yes with out a second thought.

Even though he probably won't ask me back out :(.

O god I miss him so fucken much ahhh.